i want to read a lot of michael foucault this summer. i want to read so many things. i want this read this book i started reading in thailand called we made the road by walking and its conversations between myles horton and paulo freire about education and social change.

macon is leaving so i feel like all out ideas and hopes for that program at the nrc now is all on me. will i follow through or will i fuck up? its hard to say.

i am going to the annual engage conference in spartanburgh, south carolina next weekend. i am very excited to go and discuss ideas and to see all of the interns and fellow students from thailand. i miss them dearly. i honestly tear up most times i think about thailand. i cant help but think i made a mistake by not going back this year. i feel like i am so much more motivated and excited and creative there. like i cant do any of the things i want to here. do you know what i mean?

oh well i guess this year is a test if i will dream things and follow through with them... or not.